"Reflecting now on how things could have been..."

So Chris Daughtry has a relatively new song out called "September."  There is one line of it that says, "Reflecting now on how things could have been, it was worth it in the end."
That line really sticks out to me, especially in relation to my recovery. 

Looking back on my life, I think about how things could have been different without an eating disorder or some of the negative choices that I made while in the midst of it.  But I think right now I can honestly say that it was worth it in the end.  If I got to go back, and somehow not have an eating disorder, well that would be nice wouldn't it?  But it isn't possible, and I am so incredibly grateful for all the things I have learned and the people I have met because of this mountain I've had to climb. 

So yes, I can look back now on how things could have been, but I can honestly say it was worth it in the end.