I had an interesting experience last night, and want to share it.
I was cleaning my room and went through a bag of clothes. I found some "sick jeans", aka jeans I wore when I was sick with my eating disorder. Internally, I gasped because I was so surprised...surprised that I forgot they were there and hadn't gotten rid of them, but surprised at how small they were. It honestly scared me, the fact that they were so small and I used to swim in them with room to spare. My immediate thought was, "I am SO glad I am not there anymore, I don't ever want to go back to that." Then that thought caused me to step back and think, wow I really have come a long way. When I was sick I would have thought, "I wish I was that thin again, I want to go back there and this is how I'm going to do it." I actually got a little nostalgic in a weird way, not that I miss being sick, but it is a huge change- not being active in the eating disorder, also known as RECOVERY. WOW. I was texting a friend through this time, and her support was great. I threw out the jeans right away, but I checked the pockets before I did, and guess what? I found $10 in them! LOL, I thought that was pretty funny.
Anyway, that's it...
